People Disgust Me
I am getting sick of most people in general. They talk about getting their hair done, eating out, buying some expensive toy they do not need, while there are people going hungry and just trying to get by with what they have. I have started to find myself being the person who is barely getting by. Yes I have an expensive apartment, a decent car that is paid for, etc. I have something because I expected, which I know I should never expect anything, things to be better with this new job. I thought regular pay every two weeks would really help me budget. Mostly what is hurting me is an inexperienced driver on my insurance policy. This is not her fault, but the fault of her parents. The least they could have done was add her as a "non-driver" which would have made her experienced cause she has had insurance for three years.

Those parents are dead-beats anyway. They assume I am rich and now can afford anything I please just because of the way I grew up. The way I grew up and the way my life is not are two totally different things. I have made some stupid choices in my life, one of those was buying a motorcycle. That I believe is the dumbest thing I have done to date. I owe more than it is worth, thus I can't sell it. I'm basically screwed with just paying the payments on it but not riding it. One guy was really interested but he wanted me to keep the payments in my name. I later found out him and his wife filed Chapter 7 a few years back and didn't want this on their credit report. By him just paying the payments I would have nothing to fall back on if he just stopped paying them. Yes I could get the bike back BUT my credit would just be fucked.

That would probably save me $200 a month and allow me room to breathe, maybe. I have been trying to find a better paying job and failing. I know this is just me ranting and I'm tired of people telling me "such and such has it worse off than you". You know what I have a big middle finger to those people who have told me that because just because someone has A.I.D.S. doesn't mean I don't have a right to complain about my own life. Things are peachy just because I am not dying of some horrible disease.

I have but the lyrics from my favorite Tool song to leave you with.

Fuck L Ron Hubbard and

Fuck all his clones.

Fuck all these gun-toting

Hip gangster wannabes.



Learn to swim.



Fuck retro anything.

Fuck your tattoos.

Fuck all you junkies and

Fuck your short memory.



Learn to swim.



Fuck smiley glad-hands

With hidden agendas.

Fuck these dysfunctional,

Insecure actresses